there are a bunch of world issues, etc, id love to write about.
hoepfully as i mentioned ill get a new comp. soon, and i will be able to get back into writing on here. i liked it- it was a good outlet, and it encouraged me to write- and no matter how fragmented or rambling, i feel better writing even in that way than not writing at all.
talk to you soon.
longer letter later,
ha.
she goes out for the night without her phone. if she is out, with friends, that is the night. sure, there are always other friends, other places, new people. but that will come later, another night. she is there then. she is always here now.
she is a good inspiration for me.
she is the opposite blackberries and spilling a double shot latte on oneself on a moving train. she is lets sit in the park and sip and see.
she is a good inspiration for me.
ive been veering away lately…
hello.
do i have any readers left? i havent been able to post from my computer bc it is old and i can do anything remotely complex with it…
and i havent been able to post from work for quite a while.
so , here i am again, at leah and jays apt. in nyc., the one place ive tried in the past month where i CAN post from.
i am here for the weekend, in nyc. i thought id be in leahs apt in brooklyn the entire time, but this city has a way of sweeping one up and plopping them down 15 hours later wherever it feels like. so after a few excursions, parties, bars, car rides, lost walks in new neighborhoods, im here. and it is RAINING. hard. i had a bagel and lox and coffee as my only meal today, and i think i am going to venture out to one of the million park slope cafes for more coffee and maybe a milkshake. maybe a coffee milkshake…! or maybe whatever place i find shelter in first.
for the past month or so, i kept thinking i would def. be moving here in the next month or so… but now ive finally decided im fine in stamford for the summer and fall. the city is HOT and crowded and expensive and et al. and if i keep just coming here every other weekend or once during each week or whatever, i will be fine. my spirit can take it! ill live in stamford for a bit more, then find a perfecto job, then be o.u.t. soon. in a year. in six months. but not by sept. theres no need to rush….
summers busy and is flying by, and fall is so perfect to me, i dont think it matters where i am. i will just want to read in a park no matter what city i reside in. so, stamford for awhile more, and then once i know, ill let you know.
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kyle and i are broken up, and im sad about it., its seems so stupid to break up w someone and then be sad about it. im so attached to him. hes a special person and im scared im letting him go and… i wrote a lot about that, but i realised i dont really want to write about it here. im starting to date kind of and i dont want to write about that here, either. so,
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a goal of mine if i do move to nyc is to not have a fulltime job. i think it would be great to have one like 3/4 or 1/2 time job that is demanding and i love and i work hard at, but there are so many opps. out here. i think it would be really fun to waitress/ get involved in art making in some way/ work directly w children/ etc a few days a week. just to switch it up some.
tomorrow in nyc: cd shop, maybe buy a dress that i can wear constantly in alternating turns w my brown dress, peacock feather earrings, hmmm i think thats surpsingly it for my consumer needs. i want to make a bunch of tees and bring them back next weekend, see if some boutiques will sell em. for like 35$ each. jeez. id be Set. itd be great, too, master plan, to clean out my closet by modifying all my clothings, and then selling them. what a way to part w old clothes… . … …. by exchanging them for cash. and then maybe my dream can come true and i can exist in primarily white tees and extraordinary accesories.
i cant spell and i cant stop sneezing, i think god is telling me to stop being so shallow.
im going to go satisfy myself in a surface way with food. maybe ill write later if im stuck in for a long time bc of the rain.
LOVE LOVE LOVE to you!!!
